zanne

はじめてあきらめたい

2006-12-10T17:43:00.000+08:00

今日の私はいったいどうしたの。すごわるいかっこうつきました。

今日はいつものようにおよぎました。でも、今日はたくさんのことがあったから、たくさんのことを考えました。

私はどうしてそんなつらいの？

なんのためにそんなくるしいの？

ＷＳは私にとっていったい何？

今日は初めて泳ぐ時泣きました。

どうして？私もわからないがちょっと苦しい感じがあった。

監督は来年私をハシオヨグハシのイベントにくわわられます。でも、わたしははしるなんてだめだ。小さいからそうです。はしるのことは大嫌い。汗の感じのが嫌い。だから水泳が好き。
かんとくは「どうしてこんどはそんな反対するですか。」といって。去年もういやなエベントで加わりました。今年またそんな？毎年毎年いやなえべんとでくわわって、どうして？どうして私のすきなえべんとでくわわってはだめですか？私は先輩たちより遅いからです。そうですか？じゃどうして先輩はこのエベントで加わらなくてもいいですか？

はい、私はうちで一番年下から皆は私を私の方法を持つことを許可してくれて。だから私はちょっとりこてきで、頑固です。でも、毎年そうわけで、いやだよ。いったいいつとめる？やめてくれよ。
監督は一、走ろう。二、やめろう。

母は「やめてのはいいじゃない？そんなわけで毎日泳ぎいては大変だ。でも、こんなままでうれしいのか？」といって。

私はいったいどうしようかなぁ。

およぎいてはわたしになんのいいことがありますか？　わたしもわかんない。
でも、もし私はまだ泳ぎたいし、はしリたいと決めれば、じゃ、十分がんばってと決めた。
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今日はすごく気持ち悪い。でも、Ｘｊａｐａｎの歌ＴＥＡＲＳを聞きたら、気持ちいいなりました。
じゃ、また。

2006-06-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

well, gna try out something new..

えいと。。。　このやすみのあいだ私はにほんごをべんきょうしなかった。　ですから、いま、わたしはにほんごでポストします。
昨日、productionがるん。　とてもたのしいひです。いろいろなだいせつなひとがproductionをみました。ですから、わたしはとえもうれしいです。　こんどのproductioｎはcomedyです。せんせいはcomedyがドラマでいちばんむずかしんといって。でも、わたしたちはすごいとおもっちるんです。　＝）　

今日は泳ぎました。　とてもつかれました。

それで、わたしはにほんごが上手ではないので、ここでおわります！

では、さよなら～！　＝）

ebird

2006-01-21T14:16:00.000+08:00

continuation of e deb8 thingy..
tt dae, me n 2 As helped 2 move tables n chairs. wa liao. do hard labour larhx. abit my dad spoils me at home n my parents treat me lyk a princess, dun need 2 do household chores.. den go sch do hard labour. wad shit.
tt dae was sian.. shud hav gone 4 classes. tink more fun. den after e deb8s, ppls were sayin we all so lucky, get 2 usher dem.. ahem ahem.. reli>? only those few got to. n dey still told us tt their rooms were near den dey played bingo n stuff. wow. so fun. n we were movin heavy tables n chairs while dey were playin...
den around 4 plus, when we were keepin e chairs in e mpr, some of dem were takin pics of e ang mohs. lyk nv c ang moh b4 larhx. wa liao. abit c us carrying stuff n ignored us as if we were losers or slaves. n still tell e auzzies 2 pose.. wad casual pose n stuff. wa liao.
howeva, e deb8 wing ppl were nice. dey were e ones hu OFFERED 2 help can? i was lyk, my very own drama wing ppl cant b bothered, yet deb8 wing ppl r lyk so nice. no wonder most of dem r leaders. REAL leaders. not phony leaders hu pretend to care.
well, enuf of tt shit.

ebird's gone 2 perth!!! oh man. so sad. wendy, tixi, oli n i put a pic of us n ebird in a nice photoframe tt wendy prepared n gave it 2 her. den we signed at e back of e photoframe. yups. ebird rox. she's one of e few super nice ones in LD. gonna miss her lyk hell.. well, i tink she's landed le. gonna cherish all those good times we shared playin basketball.. n going 2 wendy's house. n well, our daily recess ritual of going 2 play when it doesn't rain. love u, ebird.. haha. i wun eva 4get u. i'v read e letter.. promise i wun change. so tt when u cum back, it wun reli seem as if u were reli away.. farewell, ebird. gonna look 4ward 2 seeing u in july..

dedicated 2 ebird.. done by eri sasaki. C:\Documents and Settings\User\My Documents\My Received Files\iluebird!.swf

leaders of tomorrow?

2006-01-17T21:56:00.000+08:00

"a leader is one who makes sacrifices, not the one to choose first."

is this sentence rite? or does e so-called leader get e priority to choose first coz she's in-charge of smth?

i rmb last yr durin games day, when we had 2 choose our games that we wanna partcipate in, ms lim told us that, as pe leaders, we r supposed to let our fellow classmates choose first. this resulted 2 pl, our netballer hu is capable of a mean captain's ball play floorball instead. a great example of leadership indeed.

rite, y did i begin wif such a serious topic? actually, im quite pissed wif some ppl.

so well, e inter-n deb8 is cumin, well, 2ml actually n we'r supposed 2 usher n stuff 2ml. e moment ms f told us tt some ppl wud b keepin track of time 4 e impromtu 4 some teams, me n amy told J tt we wanted 2 do tt. J nodded. den, e rest of dem were smart enuf, instead of tellin J, dey presumably told ms f. yes. n tt grp included j. wow. so in e end, all i received durin e wkend was a msg sayin sry, but we told ms f oredy. n J dint rmb u tellin her tt u wanted e job. FINE. do i need a tape recorder next time? u noe wad was e worst?? dey expressed 'concer' (cough, cough, cough) by callin me bac n sayin, den how? den how? den how? pls, 4 gdness sake, i noe u r not tt dumb. well, actually u r 2 clever. knowin tt e only solutions wud b either u sayin u wud giv up ur place (which u guys dint) or me sayin nvm u all do larhx, waddya tink e outcome wud b? ain't it a bit too HYPOCRITICAL???? naturally, i was pissed n said, u all do larhx except i was a lil hostile n added," anyway, wadeva i say wun matter rite? u guys hav decided." well, true rite?

k, mayb dey shudn't giv up their place, i mean e other members. but e fact tt there r some leaders in e grp, shudn't dey noe wad 2 do? dunno how 2 zi dong izzit? n guess wad? e person co-ordinatin it was one of e first 2 put her name down 4 tt job tt everyone wants.. wow. n she had told me tt since everyone wanted, she wud draw lots.. in e end??? EMPTY PROMISES. great. wad BENEFITS there r being a LEADER.

hmm. in e end? naturally, we, e outcasts got e lousy places. once again, BENEFITS of being a LEADER. tsk tsk.

dun get me wrong, i love my cca.. i juz dun fancy e ppl. actin cool n beng n all, tryin 2 make in circle n out circle things, juz 2 ensure tt dey r in.. dey r juz scared of being out.. dey r sooo outcastin v n c.. den followed by me n a1.. den when dey need a2, den use her to form e no.. but when dey dun need her, they, as wl likes to say, CHUCK her aside. it's pretty obvious guys, even others frm ld say so..

well, ebird quoted tt me n amy r always so quiet durin LD n tt's y.. hmm.. well, ask tixi or oli or wendy.. pls, by nature, i m sooo NOT quiet. i can crap. amy's chatty n fun 2 b wif 2.. it's e circumstances tt changed us durin tt 2 hrs every week. seriously, i'v so many complains on my cca.. did i choose correctly?? i wonder too. hua hui seems so much more united.. sighs.

btw, im juz speakin generally.. so if it's not u, it's not u..

bye for now.

party.

2005-12-23T14:23:00.000+08:00

yest's party was quite ok. dint play much lyk e other parties but well, it's coz i went 2 play bball wif e guys n mel. mr kwa n emily served us loads of sashimi!!! oh man. it was e first time i solely ate sashimi until i was bloated. seriously bloated. there was e yummy salmon belly, not-so-firm tuna, delicious swordfish, juicy prawns n QQ squid. YUMMILICIOUS! so i ate n ate. until it was dinnertime. den i cudn't eat e rice n stuff. haha. 2 full.

den some of e guys went 2 play bball. den coz e others were watchin tv, me n mel went 2 play too. got zhenhao, daniel, leonard, e 'waterpolo' guy, justin's brother, edwin, nigel, edmund, jiaxuan, mel n me. i tink i got everyone. den mel only wanna 'kai qiu' 'open ball'. haha. den i stand near e basket, hopin 2 catch lan ban. n i did catch alot!!! =) e guys were quite nice. dey agreed 2 not guard e girls. haha. n dey weren't rough 2 us. n i managed 2 score 2 shots!!!!! pro sia.. haha. so proud of myself. but i tink if dey were 2 guard me, i can forget about even touching e ball. hehs. but e guys were damn good. but well, there were 2 bball players among our grp.. edwin n nigel.. so ya.. but e others were good 2. den after an 'accident' happened n leonard's just recovered wrist got kicked by someone, he stormed off. den edwin oso dun wanna play le. den slowly everyone left. den left wif me n mel n daniel. so we continued juz shooting hoops. mel is quite good man. daniel cud shoot 3-pointers. n he was quite nice coz when me n mel shoot n den nv go in, he wud help us take e balls n pass back. yups, v gentlemanly.. haha.

den later on when we back, everyone was sittin near e lift there. found out that dey were playin murderer while we played ball. haha. so pathetic.

den went back 2 e house 4 exchange gifts. justin lim got my present, a big fat banana plushie. wasted, tot it wud b given 2 some kid. oh wells. n he dint even open it. i tink coz he brought his gf... dunno y. n jasmine wanted 2 c, but cudn't.. so sad. shud giv 2 a kid lorhx. anw, i got edmund's prezzie. a cute pooh bear n piglet yellow mug wif lid. v cute. somemore edmund's cute. haha. he can play basketball qutie well lorhzx. uh.. juz in case u dunno, edmund's this 8 yr old kid.. haha. i tink 8 larhx.

den i ate darryl's cheesecake. damn nice. he looked quite sad. dunno y. i tink coz he had baked 3 cakes den emily held 1 wif only 1 hand, offerin 2 everyone, den accidentally, e whole cake went 'piack' onto e floor. shud b quite xin tong larhx hor.. i mean, lyk how much effort.. n den.. 'piack'- gone. but oh well, he'll get over it.. haha. next time it'll juz b a joke i guess.. anw, i loved e oreo one.. hint hint.. OREO CHEESECAKE = YUM YUM. haha.

anw, den we went outside. den nobody bothered bout XY. den she got attention by takin one of aloyscious's (duno how 2 spell) slipper. den she threw it down. n e time was around 10.30pm if i wasn't mistaken. so, all e little kids n ppl went down lookin 4 e pathetic "golden" (actually white) slipper worth $7.50. e pair cost $15. so half of it.. ya, $7.50.. den left me, edwin, minhui, leonard n nigel. den played dai di. den surprisingly, minhui n edwin were sian of XY. oh wow.. i was shocked.. not strong enuf a word.. hmm.. astounded. i tot dey were part of her fan-club. haha. den we played n ate e snack. duno wads it called but it's nice. e small small bright orange bits. i noe when i ws young i wud buy it at e provision shop, 1 pack for lyk 10 cents. called pok pok or smth. yes, i noe. funny name. but mayb i remembered wrongly. i only played 1 game coz my dad wud b cumin den altho i won, let nigel play coz scared daddy call.

den ya. through e party, i was lucky 2 escape from e stinky red wines n stuff. bleahx.

den when we reached home, my stupid maid was up 2 her nonsense again. i wanted 2 tell my mum about e party, den when i started n was about 2 continue wif e next sentence, my kaypoh maid blubbered e whole thing, not-to-mention comprising of mistakes again. i was damn pissed coz it wasn't e first time she cut me n went on to her speech full of false facts coz she tinks she noes e story when i m actually e one who went through it. hmm. n my mum listened 2 her n when she finished her part i refused 2 talk. n my mum scolded me 4 makin others wait 4 me 2 talk. i was soooo damn pissed. y cant my mum actually ask her 2 stop first n let me finish my story b4 she continued? my mum actually told me 2 add on after my maid finished. lyk WTH? i started e story lorhx. so sick. my maid's always lyk tt. actually it was such a fun day. had 2 spoil it 4 me. den my maid had e nerve 2 actually tell me that i was at e party 2 early.. hello? emily told me that dinner starts at 6. so of course hav 2 b there earlier rite? coz everyone's supposed 2 bring food. den ya.. so i said reach there b4 6. we reached around 5.45pm. den my maid said what i lied, that i was early coz i wanted 2 b there wif my swimmates n stuff. WTH. she said others arrived around 7 n everyone waited n that i cud b there later. HELLO??? key-phrase- everyone waited. so i shud b e last one there???? den EVERYONE would WAIT 4 me??? oh pls, i hav manners. n i'v got no excuse 2 b late anw.. so ya. stupid maid. spoilt my whole night.

den i felt queasy e whole nite while i was watchin e replay of bai fen bai. mayb coz e whole night i only ate raw seafood n cheesecake n a forced slice of ham. n my mum n maid ganged up against me n made me cry.

den i promised myslef not 2 tell my mother anything anymore. not about my feelings n stuff.. coz anw, she doesn't care n she wud prob hear dem frm my oh-so-know-it-all maid. so ya. i shall keep 2 myself. i noe it's pathetic, but i've been tellin my mummy everything 4 e past 14 yrs of my life. not gonna anymore. she can heck care 4 all she wants. im not going near her. shall b lyk my kor, anw it's her own fault. yes. remind me 2 stop if i start 2 say anything bout my private life 2 my mother. n hit me if i tell my maid. i've had enuf. bleah.

anw, this morning, my maid was mean 2 me again. hmph. reli ain't gonna tell her anything anymore.

revive!

2005-12-20T22:44:00.000+08:00

yo. currently reviving my blog 4 e 3rd time! yes, 3rd time. well, in fact, i wasn't ignoring or leaving my blog dead. i tried 2 revive it. e first time i did, e com shut down. stupid com. oops, no repeat of that pls, i noe u'r registerin every word now, dear ole computer. e 2nd time, my kor came home, n as usual, 'chased' me out. still dun understand y e com is in HIS room n not mine! sighs, e advantages of being 6 years older.

anw, recently so many things happened. wanna post everything, but it'll take 4eva. so.. start from 2dae, i guess. haha.

oli, tixi n wendy came over 2dae. played a bit of cards, played bball, ate alot n gossiped alot. haha. not reli gossip. but ya, shared alot. so happy that we r blossomin into great pals. haha. i sound pathetic. but ya, i guess i dun open up that quickly. it takes time.. n i guess people's first or new impression of me ain't always good. i guess u need 2 noe me 4 at least quite some time first. but usually, these frenz that hav been wif me r well treasured. yups..

we played 3 mini matches of game point 11. first i teamed wif tixi, den wendy, den oli. turned out that anyone hu teamed up wif oli lost. haha. so i won twice, tixi won twice, wendy won twice. oli? forget bout it. she got a big fat chicken egg. haha.

tian kong is a nice song! e one by derrick!!! never ever that woman.---some random thought!! haha.

anw, most of u out there hav prob heard ppl saying that there's no ugly woman in the world, only lazy ones.

oh puh-lease. lazy ones as in?? not puttin on make-up? pls, wad happened 2 e natural look? being real, not plastic? being overweight? helo? sometimes it's juz hereditary. anw, i tot beauty comes from ur heart or something like that? wad happened 2 that?

wadeva. anw, dear girls, pls put makeup n dressup 4 urself, not anyone else. YOU look good, YOU feel good.

perhaps love is a nice movie! go watch it!----- another random POV. haha.

anw, who noes how 2 use photoshop? i wanna learn. pls???? pls? pls? like how 2 change e colour of hair n stuff lyk that? come on, teach me! pls. haha.. i sound pathetic again. ///

gna shop 4 more exchange gifts 2ml, ;)

well, ciaos 4 now! =)

maids

2005-12-01T19:54:00.000+08:00

nowadays, there hav been so many issues of wanting to improve maids' lives in our country. i, myself, hav a filipino maid. been wif us 4 20 yrs i suppose. yup, so long. coz we dun abuse her, my parents r nice 2 her. she sits wif us at e dinner table, when we eat lobster, she eats lobster, whether it is abalone or sharksfin soup, she gets a share. n we do celebrate her birthday too.

of coz, we expect her 2 behave as she shud 2. recently though, i feel that she isn't as timid n submissive as before. now, she dares to talk back. she orders me around n scolds me too. or even when i want 2 watch tv, she wud giv me a black face for switching channels when she is watchin tv. also, she wud mutter n grumble. truely annoying. today, after my swimmin, she had to choose that time to make a phone call on e public phone. n i had 2 wait there, naturally i was pissed n showed a black face coz all my swimmates were passin us. den she had 2 b angry n walked so quickly i cudn't catch up due to my exhausting trainin. sometimes, i tink i m e maid, not her. she expects me 2 obey her. is tis e maid tt we r supposed 2 improve their lives on? can we improve mine first? shudn't both parties giv n take? shudn't she b e maid that doesn't talk back?

well, im gettin sick of being the maid. let's hope it all ends.-pissed.

2nd best me

2005-11-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

swim com was yest, sunday. got 4 silvers out of 5 events. 3 individuals n 2 relays, one of which i failed 2 claim. guess wad? 3 of e individuals were lost 2 a junior from sng. well well well, if it isn't such a coincidence.. my race was 4 sec 1 n sec 2 girls in case u were wonderin y i lost 2 a JUNIOR. embarassin yes, but she trains wif a club n is on our sch team. yeah. cud c she worked hard. she deserves it. hahs/ im a nice senior/ . my butterfly timin was disgusting!! well, i noe it isn't much of an excuse but when i plunged, e right side of my goggles filled wif water n i was afraid my contact lens wud cum out or smth. gna get hell from my coach later i guess. coz i havn't explained tt. well, dint c e point 2. at least i hope he wud train me harder n not juz chuck it aside. n chuck me aside.

thinkin bac, i remember when i was in p2 or p3, coz of my build, aka tall n fat 4 my age, many coaches did want to coach me, claimin my potential. yet i stayed wif my coach. durin den, lotsa stuff happened n xy got 2 b our star of e team. i noe my coach had wanted 2 train me, but at tt time i found it quite a chore 2 bring myself 2 swim. hey, i was a kid wif a life. i wanted 2 play, my parents wanted me 2 study, prefectorial board needs my duties. i realised tt i'v wasted my life away. i cud b a star swimmer now if i had trained. yet, although reluctantly, i hav 2 resign 2 fate, it's 2 late. i had skipped e chance. now, everyone's so far ahead. how m i supposed 2 catch up? altho i wan 2 now, i tink it is 2 late.

now, ld's preparin 4 cca fair. at first, we were told tt we cud offer 2 b in e play in e mpr. i was quite excited esp since i havn't performed in an actual play yet. yet, something told me it wasn't gna b ez. wif so many talented actresses, how cud i stand a chance? yup, i was rite. 2dae, someone told me tt i wud hav 2 do buskin. yes, i noe tt buskin's fun n all, thank you. but it isn't e same. dey had already picked e actresses. yup, those few. guess im back 2 where i m again. i wonder when wud i actually ACT in a play? i noe there's gna b a major production next yr. it's a sch production. i wanna n i hope 2 get a part. but den again, i can juz guess wad e outcome wud b. mayb ld wud oso fly 2 another country again, lyk tis yr's perth, yet i noe my parents cant afford it. if only we were rich. i wanna take an actin course lately, coz of e countless setbacks i hav in acting, yet i noe dey r costly. sigh. if only some person wud juz talent scout me now n put me in a drama serial, mayb e outcome wud b different, wif e experience n all. well, wadeva.

after winnin e silver medals, i suddenly realised. mayb stuff tt im doing, altho they'r good, they're never e best. even when i was e head prefect in pri sch, i was constantly being compared 2 e previous head prefect, who had tt amazin aura wherever she went, i really respect her. in studies, i was never no. 1.. in sch or even at home, where my genius brother has all e brains. in swimmin, oh well, 4get bout it, my p5 swimmates can beat me easily. in drama, i can v well 4get bout it. will i always b good but not excellent? frankly, i wanna b e best. who wudn't? i like being e champ n e princess n stuff. i love it when daddy calls me a princess, coz i wanna b my own princess, wif my own rules n demands.

JLPT is round e corner, this sunday actually. yet, im simply not in e mood 2 study. i mean, basically, im totally in holiday mood n my brain is rusty. havin not had jap lessons 4 e past month or so, how do u expect me 2 remember a single jap thing? ok, i do remember some stuff, lyk 1 to 10. but still, loads of it r gone. n i havn't read wad r e components. oh great. i paid lyk 21 bucks 2 torture myself. sighs. hope i'll b in e mood soon.

n, btw, i'v been tryin 2 notice my tipped off weird slang n i reli duno how i got it. it isn't intentional. been tryin 2 kick it, failin miserably. duno when n how i got it, n i admit, i cant stand it coz i cant stand ppl slang-ing. sighs. well, anyway i cant stand myself. n, juz in case, im NOT lookin 4 sympathy, thank you. never liked being sympathysed, it's pathetic.

blogs

2005-11-22T02:30:00.000+08:00

well. juz finished readin xiaxue's blog. i find her posts very fascinating. cudn't stop readin. was doing vocab hw until e online dictionary took 2 long 2 load n i got bored. thus finally read her posts. very quirky. altho she claims to be a poly blah blah blah, i would consider her an intellectual. well, her reflections are quite deep, tho not too cheem. n i like her bluntless, no pretence. altho she mite sound what we wud define as 'wrong behaviour', she is true. she expresses wad we feel yet lack e courage 2 say. not tt i agree to all of dem but. well, she makes sense. n she is darn good with photoshop. hmm. wanna learn 2, den i wud bcum photogenic. heex.

havn't blogged since a long time. gonna watch GOF soon tho i heard it isn't good. but hey, how can i miss out on such a movie when i'v read all e books n watched all e movies so far?

got ld 2ml.. oops i mean later. but hell, not sleepy yet.

homework's piling up. how wud i ever finish? n e teacher even asked us 2 relax! i wish they would e more efficient way. (forget bout hw) im supposed to read san guo yen yi (3 kingdoms or smth lyk tt). sure die. my chinese is lyk...... no words 2 describe. how would i survive such a cheem book??? oh wells. worry bout tt when i'v gotten e book.

got in2 C3 in case u were wonderin. physics n chem. not regrettin my decision 2 not take c1a. has. found out tt loads of ppl hu got invited dint 2, so lots of ppl hu dint get invited got in. oh wells. congrats. gonna take elit next yr n elec geog. heard pure geog's easier. oh wells. 2 late i guess.

been watchin loads of anime recently. i juz love anime! oh well. at least e ones tt i watch. finished peach girl. i love okayasu! haha. i love prince of tennis! it's lyk damn nice. thnx peiling 4 introducing it. heex. givin u credit. erm. i love bleach as always. thou it cums out at a slow rate. n it's gettin draggy. i lov e j drama. H2. kimi to itahibi. damn nice. yamada takayuki is cute! 2 bad he's only 165cm. im taller! sighs. y r cute guys short? another example? my all-time idol. wilber! oh wells. guess they cant help it. no one's perfect.

loads of ppl going 4 hols or r enjoyin them this period. oli's gettin me a christmas prezzie. =) we'r exchangin gifts. she wans a ....... dun tell u! heex =D !

v long nv play ball le. gonna hit libraries soon. im not a nerd. juz wanna catch up on readin! sighs. but most of e books tt im interested in r usually on loan already. pray hard tt i wud get wad i wan soon.

swim com this weekend. sunday. wish me good luck. dunch noe whether i'll b postin anymore b4 then.. hahas. well.. wud post if i win anything i guess.. hehs.. so u beta hope tt i get smth back! ermm.. i mean alot of stuff back! not juz 1. im greedy! =)

guess im gettin tired.. nite! =)

touched

2005-11-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

well..

okies. sorry. was in a pretty bad mood when i was writin e previous post.. moodswings.. well.. i've gotten over it.. shud do some soul searching... guess im not good enuf, not lettin go n juz blamin everything n everyone else.. feelin ashamed now.. well, thnx u guys 4 e support.. thnx 4 pullin me up when im down.. it's lyk a pat on e back when im down..
Actually i dint expect anyone 2 read my posts.. haha.. esp since i hav been lazy.. n e font colour's horrendous.. haha.. i do noe..

results were pretty ok this time.. got invited into c1a.. ec.. but not gonna put it as 1st choice i guess.. gonna choose physics n chem.. heex.. givin up bio.. n of course continuing jap!! =) well, gonna buck up next yr man.. wanna get 75 n above 4 average.. haha.. gonna try hard...

was quite sick recently.. tt dae flagday i was lyk vomiting n vomiting e afternoon.. but i cudn't not go coz i promised.. so i went.. feelin sick.. left early though.. was 2 sick later on.. i vomited 6 times tt fateful day.. at least my can was at least 1/3 to 1/2 full.. hehx..

trainin's been slack coz last week coach flew overseas 2 compete on e team.. hav't heard e results.. wud get updated 2ml i guess.. though im dreadin trainin...

been playin bball.. shootin hoops.. althou most dun go in.. somemore tt dae kena thrashed by my kor.. wa liao.. cant believe he's tt good.. n anw, i sprained my poor finger.. still kinda hurts now.. but it's much beta.. tt dae it swelled.. so fat n ugly.. haha.. gonna play again on mondae! =)

had ld 2dae.. a new course.. was quite fun.. i ws surprised at how much i cud let loose.. my my.. nv wud hav expected myself 2 4get bout humilation.. haha.. if i were tt p6 me, tt tense n bossy me, i guess i wud nv hav been in ld.. =) ld's fun.. i shall buck up in drama 2! i shall... i will..

going out wif oli 2ml! =)

wei's most likely going 4 superstar.. gna support her! but she has 2 pass all e hurdles first.. family n judges.. i tink she was quite sad when she called me.. sighs.. wishin her all e best n gonna giv her my full support!!! gambatte ne!

wanna work hard in all aspects.. shall work hard... wanna b successful.. gotta improve.. gonna improve...

unpopular

2005-10-20T19:16:00.000+08:00

well, realised tt im not in drama fest.. quite disappointed actually, coz i'll prob b e only ld gal not in again.. i 'audited' 4 2 roles.. yet dint get any... wasn't good enuf i guess.. i realised tt i'll most probably spend e next 2 yrs rottin in my cca.. coz it only grooms those hu shine.. im left behind, unwanted, alone.. everyone can act, except me.. or mayb coz im not popular, nobody voted 4 me.. or mayb, half e class was gone when they voted.. well, there's lyk 26 roles n im not in any.. how amazing.. guess being in ld doesn't make a diff.. im lousy at actin. almost everyone has a role, except me.. im juz lousy. jap clique doesn't wanna act, yet i suspect they'll get roles.. sometimes i wonder, y m i such an outcast? y cant i hav true frenz tt stand by me? y cant i b an influential person? someone pls answer me.. if there was a choice, popularity n true frendship, which 2 choose? which 2 treasure? i wonder.. feelin kinda lousy.. been proven tt i cant act, cant shine.. my cca record wud totally suck.. coz im not in syf this yr.. y is my record so lousy, n den yet others r so established?? y do they get chosen so easily yet i cant prove my own's worth? mayb im not needed, mayb im juz an extra.. feelin pathetic n helpless, a lil desperate.. how can i eva count only on my studies to take me 2 a top jc?? mayb, im thinkin 2 far, but, i noe im worried, i wanna succeed.. y is it so difficult 2 me? no talents, no money, no nothing... juz pathetic old me. useless.. sometimes i wonder, y.. y is this world lyk tt..well, i noe if they take my primary sch record, mine wud hav been flawless, yet it's e sec sch record tt they want.. e 1 tt im unsuccessful, tryin hard 2 fit in yet blocked n shut off by so many barriers.. life is an obstacle, life is unfair, life.. life, life.. wad's it all about, i wonder..

bgr

2005-10-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

BGR.. y is it so common nowadays? y r all teenagers, well mostly, so desperate to find their soulmates at this young age? well, evidently, seeing frenz fallin into relationships n tellin me tt tis person is so nice n blah n blah n blah, is it reli true? i sense some loopholes at times.. wadeva happened 2 waitin 4 things 2 take course naturally? wadeva happened to taking things a step at a time? in n out in n out, they fall into n den hard out of relationships.. i admit, sometimes when u r reli down n need support, u wish 4 someone to b there 4 u.. but muz it b an opposite sex tt is ur stead? mayb mine is of a one-sided view on this topic but still..
sigh.. love or infatuation? i often wanna ask my frenz but daren't for fear of 'being e spoilt milk' n e sour grape.. well, mayb.. m i jealous??? i dun tink so.. i tink tt i noe myself n i m not matured enuf 2 hav a second half now.. im 2 demandin, i guess.. i wud get 2 jealous n hold a tight rein.. furthermore, im not pretty, im fat n ugly, it wud reli take true love 2 fall in love wif me.. haha..
short-term BGRs, fun n play.. is havin a soulmate now tt good? i tink it takes alot of compromisin n responsibility.. also, consideration.. examples i hav seen of frenz so far r... more of a "puppy love" type.. mayb, im 2 naiive, 2 demandin, 2 i dunno..
definitely, u shud tink twice b4 gettin into a relationship.. i love u, u love me.. pls, we hav outgrown barney, n puppy love, i believe...

class gatherin

2005-10-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

okies, class gatherin was on fridae... 8/10/05..

firstly, i tink at e beginnin it was borin n i started 2 tink tt it was gna b a total flop n i was wastin my time.. when wl dint book e courts 2 play bball, my ulterior motive 4 going, i was pissed.. seriously pissed coz dey were still plannin e games n we had nth 2 do.. i was impulsive n wanted 2 leave actually.. n den suddenly e comm came n wanted us 2 play 'amazing race' arnd e place.. i was lyk qutie 'er...' did i cum here 4 tis? altho me n wei wanted 2 leave, pam wanted 2 stay.. so we stayed.. haha.. den ermm it was quite ok larhx, except e fact tt we started wif our first clue being wrong.. dey wrote e equation wrongly... but anw, limzhen was nice... =) i tink coz it was her fault.. haha.. den ya.. we managed 2 hav fun.. i tink wl was oso pissed wif me coz i was 1 of e non-enthu ppl.. n our class got scolded by e security guards countless times coz we were 2 noisy.. haha.. but i mean it is quite hard 2 control a bunch of about 40 gals hu juz finished their exams n r about 2 b separated.. rite??? haha.. anw, e food was ok.. n.. ya..

e talk was touchin.. but i tink e givin out of presents shud b more.. ermm... interestin?? excitin?? i mean juz askin dem 2 turn arnd after e 'blindfold' is quite meaningless.. mayb dey shud b scared out of their wits first..

well, actually i cant reli stand e fact tt some of e presents were oredy chosen.. but, nvm.. it's over.. so ya..

anw, wud miss wei...

n e other ip ppl, krislyn, coco, jennifer, sam, jayne,

n evetor, hu's leavin 4 china..

EOY

2005-10-05T15:34:00.000+08:00

well.... exam week's finally here.. been missing loads of trainin.. hav 2 work hard, u c... well, mondae's maths pp was ok standard, only e cookie question was diff coz i started 2 panic... i had lyk only 10 mins left 4 tt question n 2 others.. was rushin lyk shit.. not surprised if i was careless.. esp pp 1.. i finished up e last 6 sums in lyk 15 mins... lyk so shit larhz.. den HCL pp was on e same dae.. e chengyu part was ez, e clit part was abit ok.. but e rest???????? like shit... din noe wad e whole pp was tokin bout.. sigh,.. im lousy in chinese.. e next dae had geog pp.. geog was... okie larhx i tink.. pray hard though, usually when i say it's diff, i wud score higher.. lol.. but only 4 geog.. den 2dae!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................ tt person totally killed my passion 4 science.. sigh... bio was ok, i guess coz some of e stuff i studied came out.. luckily... haha.. but i dint noe how 2 draw e human egg thingy.. but heck. it was ok.. den chem.. haiz.. dint noe wad was e atomic structure,.. so lyk im quite dead.. i tink peiling wud score higher den me ... den physics>??? 4get bout it.. sigh.. my common test had a reasonably high mark which wud definitely not b enuf 2 make up 4 my loss of marks in this physics pp.. im dead. sigh.. i wanna take physics!!!!!!!! now, i guess i cant.. so sad... actually, i knew how 2 do e questions.. but den, got not enuf time.. den i panicked.. n u can guess e rest.. my hands were lyk suddenly freakin cold coz i knew i cudn't finish.. i was lyk so dying.. den when we had 2 hand in e pp.. i was super depressed le.. sigh.. wat a waste of marks.. i lost marks tt shudn't b lsot.. tt feeling is disgustin.. i nvm again wanna lose things tt shudn't b lost... well, i made a bet wif peiling.. if 1 of her pps win me, she's giving me a treat.. den if all my pps win her, i giv her a treat.. sigh.. i dun mind givin e treat.. haha/. upon reachin home, i was lyk so damn depressed.. n a message popped into my mind "watch anime"... so i did.. haha.. 4 quite long.. den i slept, 2 numb e despicable feeling inside of me.. now im online n still dun feel lyk studying 4 lit 2ml.. coz e feelin is still there.. im dreadin anymore pps.. yet, i shud look 4ward 2 2ml.. it's e last pp... sigh... WISH ME LUCK!! i need it desperately..

cough cough

2005-09-08T14:12:00.000+08:00

wow.. hols r here!!! yippie!--- actually, not reli...

anw, results 4 national lifesaving-- i got a bronze.. ya.. ermm.. watersapiens got overall champs n women overall champs!! yay!

went 2 kbox e other dae!! wif eileen, cheryl n tricia.. it was quite fun.. i guess, wif e exception of e lousy meal n service.. amk branch is lousy.. i prefer ciney's...

well, been working hard... quite... haha.. studying 4 history.. damned pp on e first dae of sch e first few periods.. it was set on purpose.. knew it all along.. sch doesn't wan us 2 b gallivantin even durin e hols u c.. tt's y dey set pps on irritatin times.. lyk e last dae of sch, last periods.. typical of our sch.. well, guess it cant b helped...

anw, havin a bad cough.. been coughin n coughin n coughin all dae e past few days.. my throat swelled 2.. sigh.. muz b e stress n studying.. haha.. c, i've been working hard.. tink i scared pam when she called 2 discuss bout e project coz i was coughin n coughin n coughin.. but, it's beta now..

well, congrats oli, 4 learnin how 2 put up pics on ur blog.. but b careful. remember e site?? e dunno wad gals site where ppl put up e pics n we found pics of our sch's cheerleaders?? haha..

anw, got a new digicam.. 5mega pixels... i guess it's quite good.. haha.. but hav't gotten a chance 2 reli use it.. nth 2 take, u c.. haha..

cant participate in dhl penang... got exam.. sigh.. it wud hav been a good opportunity 2 c how other countries compete in lifesaving.. well, next yr den! haha.. pls ppl in-charge, hold it durin e hols or smth.. more convenient...

e day b4, wei came over 2 study 2gether..we worked hard 4 a few hours, den decided 2 slack.. heex.. in e end, we painted nails... haha.. but well, at least i understand physics nw.. thanx wei!!! love!! gna miss u next yr when u r in nj..

well, gtg.. need 2 study!!! haha.. i'll try...

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plastic smiles, sympathetic looks, broken promises-------- wad 4??

time flies

2005-08-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

time flies, i realised...

soon, term 4 wud arrive, n our history exam (on e first dae when sch reopens, !!!!!) wud come..

den soon, end of exams n e last few weeks as 2 TRUTH '05 wud draw...

boy am i gonna miss our class...

n alot others...

so many ppl r leaving... 4 ip...

is it reli tt good/?

i tink dey juz wanna escape o-levels n our sch..

well...

i dunno...

i still wanna b given my chance 2 shine.. durin e O's.. mayb, by den, i wud hav positions n stuff...

PRAY HARD>...

sigh, life is so short...

i need 2 start working hard, improve myself, PULL UP MY MARKS!!!!!!!!!

streamin is vital!

i wanna take triple, i wanna take geog (well, instead of e damn freaky history)

i wanna do well...

i shall strive...

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lame post. maybe coz lifesavin national's 2ml.. feelin nervous n crappy... n wantin 2 excel..

i wanna b an eagle, not a chicken.. lol... juz lyk e story durin "family time" in sch...

ndp

2005-08-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

ok... lets start wif trainin...

it was TOUGH...

i hate runnin, yet we started running lyk siao... ok, not me.. as in i was slackin at first.. run n walk, jog n briskwalk... wadeva..

den we had tis break. coz suddenly, everyone juz subsequently stopped.. so we stopped, thinkin it was e last of it.. much 2 our surprise, fine my surprise, yishun gang had 2 jog 3 rounds... my coach knew i was slackin i guess... coz he ran behind me n my swimmate, chasin both of us.. den unfortunately, her shoelace came undone.. n guess wad? i cudn't stop.. i had 2 run alongside my coach hu was lyk so damn fast???? den we sprinted e last 100m... omg, when i finished tt, i was lyk so dying... but i felt much beta.. haha, not so guilty...

u noe, e feelin of dread b4 each trainin, but becoming overwhelmed by satisfaction after a good trainin n feelin damn dead guilty when u had slacked??

haha.. back 2 topic.. anw, after tt, we swam.. towed manikin.. ek n jerianne's manikin.. it was heavier den ek... anw, im lyk damn slow, but i need 2 giv a lead 2 e fourth tower... sigh... STRESS... hope i dun disappoint...

oh.. den..

as todae is our country's bdae, happy bdae SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! , i rushed bac 2 catch e activities at yishun... it was lyk damn hot.. i was wif eileen, cheryl n trisha.. den we ate e turkish ice cream.. e one where e person makes fun of u.. ya.. i dint reli lyk it.. still lovin hiaagendez (wadeva e spellin, cant remember).. anw, ya.. den we did temporary tattoos.. 50cents.. lyk dirt cheap? i did a dolphin!!!!!! haha.. so cool... den we went 2 np.. coz i was lyk damn thirsty... gulped down a medium lemon tea.. haha.. den we rushed homw 2 eat dinner, den we went down 2 wait 4 nicholas, tanya n twins.. den we got a big shock...
coz it was lyk so packed.. b4 we went up, it was quite empty.. den when we came down.. it was 'ren shan ren hai'.. den somehow we squeezed n squeezed.. n i tink we were quite good a t it.. haha coz we became quite in front.. but i dun c y SOME ppl, those rc ppl got chairs.. n we dint.. i noe dey did e flag, but, i mean i tot its held here so shudn't e residents get 2 watch it first???? den anw, wadeva.. we waited n waited. stood n stood.. remember i rushed frm trainin.. my legs were lyk omg.. so dying..

den when e parade was over, we finally got excited n fans rushed 2 e front. as we were in e 2nd row oredy behind e barricades, we found it unfair when ppl cud get 2 e chairs coz at tis point of time e ppl hu sat wanted 2 go home.. den i met another fren hu climbed over e barricades.. cool.. haha... den ya.. we were pretty bac oredy... sad..

den twins sang.. dey were reli pretty.. reli reli pretty..
den there was a break, a long long long long long break.. a showcase of our defence stuff.. den we were lyk so packed there n yet we had 2 watch e big screen.. it was lyk 'jian bing jian' oredy.. den i felt giddy, so did eileen.. 4 of us cudn't breathe.. it was hot n squeezy.. i cud feel my sweat dryin on e person next to me's shirt.. haha.. den e whole place was stinky... full of "perfumes" of sweat n grass... den as e showcase was long n draggy, e crowd grew impatient.. den everyone was lyk "again?" "still got?!" ya...

den finally, it was over, tanya came out..
den ya.. while she was singin, we cud c xietingfeng on e right side of e stage.. our right.. den coz we were nearer 2 e rite, den can c him.. den he was lyk so shuai..

den when he went onstage finally, den e atmosphere was brought higher by a notch... den we screamed lyk so siao lyk tt.. den ya.. den after 2 songs he ran backstage.. den e emcees came back 2 end e show..

den we waited 4 e crowd 2 disperse.. coz its lyk when got fans still there e stars wun cum out.. den we waited n waited.. finally, e crowd dispersed, den we went behind.. n wanted 2 check it out.. den e stars had actually left much earlier..

den i felt quite stupid.. shud hav known 2 follow out when tingfeng ran backstage.. shud hav known tt e emcees cumin bac 2 end e show was a chance 4 e stars 2 make a getaway.. sigh.. but i was glad i went.. seeing him made everything worthwhile.. even thoguh i prob almost fainted, but heck. wadeva.

anw.. came home dead tired n told e story of 2dae 2 my mummy! haha

my mummy was there 2, but she dint cum wif me, she went wif daddy by themselves.. she said in e middle of e concert there was a frog behind, near where she was.. den e frog jumped (waddya expect frm a field?) n everyone screamed.. i mean lyk of course.. haha. i wud 2.. den e frog wanted 2 escape from e throng of ppl n hopped even more.. but accidentally landed in2 a plastic bag n wantin 2 exit, hopped within e plastic bag.. so e bag appeared 2 b movin.. lol.. n ppl hu dint noe tt there was a frog inside were saying stuff lyk "7th mth..." so she found it amusin.. haha.. beta den e show... haha...

after tt, i bathed n began readin another post frm tis blog tt i so often go i dunno y..

but i tink i lyk e person's point of view..

interestin..

well anw, i tink tt blogs r good.. dey help me reflect.. dey help me think it out. dey help me express my feelings.. also, cool down..

only.. its troublesome.. lyk sometimes i wanna pen my thoughts but i dun hav a com wif me or smth..

floorball

2005-08-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

pls dun ask me 2 play anymore if u wan e real players 2 play when dey can n ask me 2 play only when dey cant.

i noe im lousy, but at least i played e preliminaries tt helped us get into e quarter finals.

i dun wanna b a substitute.

if e prize is going 2 dem, dey jolly well make e effort, im pissed.

LIFE

2005-08-03T21:17:00.000+08:00

MY LIFE.

y?... y is it that i can feel warmth and love one moment, yet engage in hatred n anger e next?

y m i so confused by everyone n everything?

y is everyone so practical in tis gruesome world?

i feel as though betrayal is common, ppl work towards their own benefit, leaving others to perish.

in tis world, i cant find true friends, hu wont leave u behind.. hu feel wad u r feeling, hu cares 4 u, reli understands u... unlike others hu juz simply pretend to..

I CANT STAND IT! STOP IT!

stop pretending to understand me, u dun! dun even try...

im all alone, i feel such pain shroudin my heart, engulfing my soul.

i wanna build a barrier around me, to protect me from crumbling yet again. i wanna b independant. i wanna b strong. i wanna...

i wan someone hu truly cares for me, hu doesn't annoy me or take me 4 granted.

i pretend 2 b ok, even though i look pathetic n feel lonesome, but im NOT.

i hate tis world, i hate tis feelin, i hate u.

stop tellin me 2 tink 4 others, stop askin me 2 reproach myself, how m i 2, if u dun?

i cant stand it anymore!

i wanna juz crawl into a hole n die.

i wonder hu wud b at my funeral?

i wonder hu wud cry.

or wud i juz b left there 2 let nature take its course, n let me decompose?

i feel such pain, shroudin my heart, engulfing my soul.

stop tis play of pretence!

i dun need it.

i wan determination, i wan perseverance, i wan, i wan...

stop takin me 4 granted, stop everything, i wanna start over again.

no! i dun.

i wan it all 2 juz end, i dun wanna live thru tis misery twice.

i hate being lonely n left out.

i hate, i hate...

rottin

2005-07-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

im rottin in Ld, ROTTING... juz ROTTING... waitin 2 waste away my 4 yrs in tis marvelous outstandin CCa... juz not talented enuf i guess... ok, if u excel in tis cca, U R LUCKY... u r so gna hav a beautiful perfect cca record... which unfortunately, i dun...
k.. fine.. im mean 2 those hu r excelin... well, actually, in e first place i dun tink dey care... lets c.. e creme is erm.. winnin every comm dey participate in, e rich r going 2 perth.. wad bout me?
I M ROTTING...

4get it, LET ME JUZ ROT N FINALLY NTH WUD B LEFT...

lifesavin at nus

2005-07-16T21:54:00.001+08:00

well... been very bz...
ld com results were out... we dint get into e finals... it was DEPRESSING... esp since we lost 2 lousy schools... sry.. but it's true... lol...
anw, SERENE!!! it's not ur fault.. u rawl gal! thanx 4 everything... thanx 4 helping us... thanx k? lov ya!
well, tt's lyk so long ago, 've practically 4gotten bout it.. lol..
anw, 2dae was finally e NUS invitational lifesavin com...
WOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
a very nervous mornin it had been...
well, e com started promptly at 1.. quite a few water sapiens ppl were well... abit late... EXCLUDING ME... haha... i was damn early can? e third one 2 arrive... haha.. i noe.. so kiasu...
well, i was damn worried larhz.. i mean lyk everyone's older den me.. imagine uni people against a mere 14 yr old me... lol.. anw, i was oso v worried coz 4 2 of my relay teams is supposed 2 win gold... well, everyone else r in e national team except 4 me larhz..
den somemore dey put me last on purpose.. so i was more worried.. pressure!!!
den me n xiaoying durin g change-over had some crop-ups... den so worried tt we wud get DQ larhz... i was lyk so scared i hai4 e team...
BUT anw, WE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! both relays wif GOLD!!! n BREAK RECORD!!!!!!!!!!!
muahahas...
i was so proud 2 receive e medal...
oh, den e individual event... i had a manikin tow event.. i was damn lousy.. 4th in my heat i tink... bleahx... yuck...
den 4 e rescue medlay, swim 50m, touch wall, turn, underwater for 17.5m, take manikin, tow back.. n cannot surface without manikin 4 e underwater part or else DQ.. waliao eh...
2 reach e 17.5 m underwater, i was practically dying can? as in i pull n kick 3 times i no air le, coz swam 50m freestyle le.. den i die die oso muz reach haha.. so my determination helped me get through tis diff phase, den yup, i surfaced wif manikin after 17.5m... den i was arnd e fifth person when i surfaced...
den i saw e person next 2 me.. den i speed up n beat tt person.. den after tt i catch up wif e third person n it was a close fight.. i cud hear my teammates shoutin 4 me.. den i pulled harder n kicked harder.. den wah.. heng ah.. i touched faster!!!!!!!!!! yay! haha
so i got a bronze 4 tis event!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was lyk so damn hapi, coz first is jerrianne, den tis is her special event so i of course cant beat her, den second is daphne, aiyah, she swim damn fast one, sure cant beat her, den i m third!!!!!!!!! so hapi... somemore dey r both frm national team, so it's lyk i cum in third n beat e others is lyk so damn cool... den tis is e only event where all 3 winners r frm water sapiens!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!! so shiok!!!!
den my another relay got only fourth, abit sad but nvm, coz we lost 2 our own team in second heat.. we were in e forst heat.. anw, i tink dey did a gd job... yups..
den OVERALL WOMEN CHAMPION was us-------------- WATER SAPIENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was screamin lyk siao!
den overall men champion was NUS
n overall was TP... sad..
but nvm, we did well..
we'll thrash dem at e nationals! haha
anw, WATER SAPIENS RAWK!!!

poem

2005-07-02T16:51:00.000+08:00

was bored... so i wrote this...

i yearn for u
that mysterious you
my favourite blue
to just notice me
and know me true

just a glance
just a smile
would drive away my problems
away a mile

yet the other day,
you wrote bout tis girl
a special her
who i dunno

is it me? my heart thumped
how i wish it was
yet deep inside i knew,
my uncertainty grew
for she has already gotten you

i'm too late
her wasn't me
the way u wrote
that poem u made
had cut my heart
like a razor-sharp blade
i dun feel any pain
coz of this heartache

the things u said
the promises u made
had been decided by fate
that u weren't for me to take

i'm too late
i wish this pain would slowly fade

yet i know,
that i can't let go...

still on camp

2005-06-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

well, i juz wanted 2 pen it down.. i've realised, one day, it wud b my level tt is steppin down.. we wud hand ld 2 e next gen... well... i dun wan tt dae 2 cum.. i reli love ld.. n oso, i tink jean did a good job wif camp..
anw, 2dae's trainin was tough... i ran only 3 rounds coz i was late.. den tt jerk hua jian.. he was supposed 2 beat me 4 50m breaststroke or else he wud hav 2 do 20 pumping.. so i was lyk ok.. den actually i won him, but i tot bout it n slowed down at e last 5m 2 let him win... den my coach noticed.. so shit, he made me do push-ups den actually i tot only hua jian hafta do tt's y i let him win larhz... wth.. anw, i was damn pissed... so i won him all e other rounds.. den at e end tt ungrateful jerk n i had 2 do push-ups den u noe wad he said? he said u ain't doing it properly.. u nv do low enuf juz coz my coach said he ain't doing it low enuf.. den i was lyk u idiot! actually i dint even hafta do larhz.. so i was pissed...
well, anw, yest my lap was damn fast.. my coach threatened if dun reach timin cant go home.. n i was supposed 2 do 1min 30 secs.. which is lyk totally out, esp since it's at e last part, when i'm oredy drained.. well so in e end, i reli chiong.. n i was lyk havin a concussion... semi-conscious.. i juz told myself 2 pull n pull, den i oso dint noe wad i was doing.. it was lyk juz my muscles movin n movin, but dunno y.. well den i saw kelvin lyk juz abit in front of me n he's lyk supposed 2 do e same timin as me.. so i was lyk cant lose him.. later he got 1.30 den i got 1.31... lol... n den i oso felt lyk i was runnin 2.4 n at e third lap arnd 1.2 to 1.6 i wud b feelin lyk i wanna giv up.. tt kind, but i persevered... well anw, den i did 1 min 27 secs... WOOHOO!!!! i tink even my coach was surprised.. lol... den he was lyk, c, hu said u cant do it... lol..
watched initial d!!! jay is so cute!!! edison so cool!!! shawn so handsome!!! but e movie is only until stage 2.. so i'd b anticipating e next follow-up.. wanna watch charlie n e choc factory n wet dreams.. lol...
cheers!

ld camp 05

2005-06-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

back from ld camp05... was terrific! had loads of fun... well, we had a part 2 help in e water games... i hoped dey had fun at tt activity... yups... n i reli tink tt tis camp has bonded us alot... reli alot... got 2 noe more bout others... den ermm... ya.. e nite trail was reli thrilling... den i was supposed 2 b e one kidnapped... budden i was e only sec 2 in my team n e rest were sec 1s...n dey were reli reli terrified... so i was lyk... senior senior only, dun b frightened by e 'ghosts'... den actually i was lyk gonna scream anytime... den whoa, xiangli n sonia were terrific... dey reli scared me... den at first when i saw xiangli, i tot i reli saw a ghost coz i was at e track den she was at e viewin gallery..den i screamed... den e sec 1s were lyk wad? wad happened? so i had 2 fake... den i said nth, juz felt lyk screamin... lol... so lame... but i dint noe wad 2 say... den later on i had 2 b e brave one n get e clues.. o, den i realised juz lie 2 urself n say i'm not scared n u wud reli becum stronger n braver... cool rite/?
anw, i totally screwed up durin elections... as in, i wanted 2 say tt i wud lyk 2 b dedicated 2 e cca n stuff... in e end i sounded desperate n eager, totally pathetic 2 b on e comm... so i tink i'll not b a comm member... well, it was reli sad when our seniors had 2 step down... i felt lyk cryin, tho i'm not in syf n i dunno dem well.. except a few... but i held bac...i'd hav seemed fake n extra, i felt... so i kept my sorrow n went home.. feelin awful... n well, loads of seniors said tt in LD if u dun shine, u'd b left behind n becum an outcast... i kinda agree... esp since i'm not in SYF (not good enuf, totally sucked at auditions) n not in perth trip (2 expensive...)... n e teacher was lyk totally lyk i'v seen talents in e perth grp... so i tink i'm oredy an outcast... well... sigh...
anw, after e camp, i went home, had a quick bath n went 2 ariel's 2nd bdae... she was cute as usual.. haha.. she's juz so adorable tt ur heart melts when u c her.. unlyk my baby cousin.. den well, coz i was l8, dey had oredy cut e cake.. o well.. anw i wasn't reli in e mood... still feelin awful u c.. den we went down 2 celebrate grace's bdae.. sry grace, i dint noe it was ur bdae... well hapi bdae! den whoa, my heart reli went all out 2 her... she was totally smashed wif e cake... dey had cut it n used toilet pp den slam it into her... so den it bcame a cake fite.. whoever came i juz shouted jia you... haha... cheap.. i noe.. den ya... well, i was quite alone actually.. but nvm, i wasn't reli in e mood anw.. i wanted 2 sink n well, juz hide.. we dint play tis yr so i went home quite early i guess... lyk 10 plus? n i had only arrived at lyk 8 plus.. den my stomach was quite empty coz camp food was horrible n i only finished lyk 1/4 of my noodles, yuck! (i noe, cindy, u were good... tolerant? finished ur whole packet!!!!!! ) yups.. den at e house e food oso finish le.. left indian food.. but i wasn't interested.. n anw, actually i felt my stomach empty but i dint feel lyk eatin.. dunno y... well.. yups, tt's bout it...
i'll miss sec 4 LD seniors 2005!!!

my missing hamster...

2005-06-20T14:07:00.000+08:00

my hamster's gone!!! it escaped yesterdae morning!!! i m so devastated... it was e joy of my family... e apple of our eyes... every nite we'd spend time wif it... den my freakin brother went 2 put it in a box instead of its usual container... den it escaped.. n he said tt it only cost 5 bucks, no biggie.. ya rite... it cost us a whole lot of love 2 ok? i stayed up until about 4am tis mornin 2 c whether it wud get hungry n cum out but to no avail... sigh... my maid said it's probably died from fallin into a hole by mistake... it was sp adorable n cute... n it knew how 2 stand on 2 feet wif its 2 paws held up front... so cute.. n it was muscular... it had broad shoulders.. i tink it is lyk a butterflier if it swam... n it had those foxy ears n small eyes... sigh.. n it's gone... ... ...

trainin

2005-06-10T00:12:00.000+08:00

whoa... i so long nvpost again... lol... been very bz... training's on wed, thurs, fri, sat... wif surfin on sundae... TIRING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... tis sundae got com... must gambatte kudasai!!! =) ermms... oh ya, last time i swim nv see anyone familiar de.. but tis tym i swim ah last week meet weian englee n others... den tis week meet feli... so coincidental...
anw, i m so damn slow can... every wed i feel so inferior... so sad.. everyone's slow is my very very very fast... I'M INFERIOR!!! haha... bitter laugh// tt dae watched ms universe den all slim n beautiful... den wed went trainin den i was one of e slowest.. sad... sigh... life's unfair..
btw, my new comforter rocks!!! haha it's tweety!!! n PINK!!! but i'm not used 2 it yet...
oh n my new black n sleek guitar has arrived!!! jealous?? haha... PAM's SUPPOSED 2 TEACH ME!!! hmph..
n i've been watchin so much anime.. i tink i'm going crazy... BLEACH rawks!! but v slow 2 cum out... haha... DEATHNOTE 2!!! so long den cum out.. lyk wait 4 1 and a half month den cum out... den read 4 lyk 1 hour den finish le... so sad... haha... y m i so pessimistic suddenly??
anw, note 2 u guys... pls drop ur link if u wan me 2 link u... yups... thanks!! =) n must leave msg.. or else i dun tag! haha... bleahx! =P ^__^

fridae e 13th

2005-05-14T14:13:00.000+08:00

whoa... so long nv update le.. hahas... anw, yest was fridae e 13th.. i was chao suay... in e mornin had a quarrel wif my maid... den my maths test last second min den teacher say got printin error... den i v scared cant get 100 le... coz i was worried bout it 4 lyk e whole test den i scared i careless... den somemore i spent 10-15 mins on tt question larhz... den i oso dunno how i'll fare... sigh... so sad... den somemore after tt i had maths training.. den it's lyk i'm feelin so depressed after e maths pp, how 2 concentrate on more maths problems?? which r lyk 10 times harder?
sigh... n i keep failin my ting xie... duno y... i studied somemore... so sad... e pp i can get A1 or A2.. but e ting xie i fail.. somemore tingxie is much easier 2 score den e diff pp tt requires u 2 tink on e spot... im so opposite... wad others excel in, i dun... wad ppl fail in, i surpass dem wif flying colours... duno wads wrong wif me..
well anw, try listenin 2 BOULEVARDofBrokenDreams.. it's nice.. =)

siao le...

2005-03-18T22:31:00.000+08:00

hii!...
HAPPY BDAE YINGEN JIE JIE!
2day e outin very fun... watched boogie man wif sam, pam n hui wei... den it sucked coz it was damn scary... den i was hidin behind my sweater wif huiwei 4 lyk more den half of e movie.. so i dint reli noe wads it bout... we were so damn freaked out... lol... actually it's quite nth... juz scary.. not much of a storyline... as my fren hu actually watched said... den pam was lyk so sleepy, i tink she kept napping during e movie... lol... den we went crazy n took neoprints... we took lyk 3 or 4 in juz 1 dae larhz... den e day before oso took... we siao le... den yups... i design de all veri nice... haha... jk.. but well... quite nice larhz gotta admit... haha.. i noe i very bu yao lian... den ermm... i had 2 rush bac 4 swimmin.. den went out 4 dinner... my arms damn achin... n i m aangry wif huabin... pissed off... well wadeva.. till next time...

my new hair

2005-03-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

i cut my hair le!!! =)) chinked out look... erm... infront quite short le.. den behind i make shorter by a lil' bit n more v-shaped!!! =))

hapi new yr

2005-01-30T18:15:00.000+08:00

okaes... first post 4 e yr... coz i've been reli reli bz... aniwaes.. belated happy new yr... belated hapi bdae 2 all my frenz n etc... ermmss... oh.. e other dae i did surfin.. it was very fun, except e fact tt i took so long 2 b able 2 kneel on e surfboard... but in all, it was fascinating... =)) oh... n yest, i wore contacts 4 e first time... so damn hapi... thnx eileen 4 ur umm... guidance??? lol... wadeva... tis yr, my sch is lyk preparin us 4 umm e thru train, so it's pretty hectic... yups.. assignments, one after another... ermms... gotta do another hw le... ciaos 4 now!! =))

BM

2004-12-30T14:45:00.000+08:00

I passed!!! i passed!!! i passed!!! =) so hapi... in a very good mood... e tester said tt after passin tis test, u can b a lifeguard le... hahahax... so hapi... i was so damn scared juz now... den somemore e earlier ppl cudn't ans e questions... so we were supposed 2 revise everything in half an hour... den i was lyk so damn nervous... but... anyways, it's all over!! =)
ok... so i missed spring cleanin in sch coz of tis test... but, somehow, i ain't regrettin it... =) hahas... quite shagged out now... tink i shud sleep now n recharge 4 later's trainin...
btw, thnx 4 all e good lucks, tagged or msged or messengered... i reli appreciated it...

christmas

2004-12-26T22:55:00.000+08:00

heyy... juz had a dinner on fridae at OCC... orchid country club... it was quite erms... grand??? but... wrong gen... mostly adults... n quite boring... nth 2 do except dance... wells... tough wk 4 me ahead... got a BM test cumin up soon... gotta pass... =) gonna train hard and remember facts... well ya... n... umm... this message is 2 a special fren of mine frm pri. sch...
"if you need someone 2 confide in, i'm here 4 u, ok? dun b rash... i wud try 2 help u..."
anyways, tis cumin week, everydae oso must swim... but... hahas.. bcoz of e test, dun hav 2 go bac 2 sng 4 spring cleanin... altho actually i dun mind going bac coz my junior JAC!!! wud b joinin me next year!!! =) so hapi... 2 years in a row headprefects joinin SNG... keep up e tradition... hahas...and umm... merry Christmas everone!!! happy boxing dae!!! happi new year!!!

swim com

2004-12-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

todae juz finished a swim com... at woodlands de... den breaststroke sec 1 gals i got gold... =) ... den butterfly and freestyle is combined sec 1 n sec 2... dens i lost 2 my teammate... coz she sec 2 de mahx... abit de wad larhz... shudn't combine... coz she damn damn damn fast... so i only got silver... den medlay relay, we last minute register de... is mixed boys n gals open.... tt means any age... den we got bronze.. n we actually losing out u noe, coz e other teams all mostly guys... n got team tt is all guys lorhz... den all e guys swim fly... den i was e only gal hu swam fly... dens i was lyk so chuan... luckily still got a medal... haha... 2 bad not gold... bleahx... den e relay freestyle we got third in our heat den another heat e first team damn fast den beat us... so wad lorhz... den we got fourth... no medal... sianz... all my events got medals except tt event... den jie got one bronze and one gold... dens i tink quite gd le lorhz... coz she so long nv train... den swim only got medal... so if she train... den lyk whoa... wud b damn good... den juz now our team everyone hu participated got medal lorhz... so quite gd larhz... den i tink if got challenge trophy, we wud get it... dens we were e loudest n noisiest... haha... keep screamin... den anyone get only we scream lyk siao lyk tt.. quite fun... so long nv compete le... 4got e feeling... now e feeling is rekindled... not bad... i tot tis com wud b lyk e kolam ayer one... diff 2 win... only got one or two bronze i tink... but surprisingly... i tink it's coz e com is at woodlands... den there no swimmers go de... e pros all at tpy... haha... den somemore there wulu wulu one... dun lyk e toilet... so dark n creepy... so lyk nobody goes there 2 swim dens dunno got such an event going on... dens only those beginners hu live around e area swim there dens dey wud noe bout e com... so tt's y dey participate.. yups... but dens e guys open cat. all damn fast... got one ah... muscle damn nice... not 2 extravagant but nice... n very toned... but not chao da... haha... den plunging is almost perfect... so damn nice... den uncle mus e sons all oso damn fast... i tink dey bao everything dey take part in... den win le shua hua yang... very funny... hahas... dun regret takin part... had a fun dae... =)

camp

2004-12-06T15:10:00.000+08:00

hihi... ok... e camp was fun... umm... we were at east coast... at e sports club i tink..den i was in e same grp as cherm n julia(1 hope) den most of e ppls in e camp were frm sng... den only 2 blys... haha... den e ppl lookin after us were frm SMU... den i was in grp 2... den coz grps 3 n 4 were mostly gym gals, dey mostly hang around 2gether... so our grp wif grp 1 lorhz... den my GLs were penny n vinae? dunno how 2 spell.. den grp 1 GLs were greg (hu looks lyk johny bravo) n bernerd... den we played games lyk "mystery man" n "black magic"... those guessin e logic games.. den very dumb dumb one larhz... n i FINALLY noe black magic le!!! haha... e time at LD camp play so short... no time 2 guess... den we oso played e "my bony" game... which was exhausting... den my mum dun allow me 2 windsurf... so we played capptain ball... den e ball SUPPOSEDLY fell in2 e water... n we all got drenched... den our GLs got in2 some trouble... but den all's well ends well... so it shud b fine... anyways, e lunches were yucky... e dinners were beta... i lyk e roasted marshmallows... very nice.. oya, den e most exciting part was when we cudn't sleep... den a very nice jie jie brought us out... we sneaked out... so had 2 climb over e wooden gate.. hahas... very fun... i first time climb gate... den we walked to macs... dint noe it was so far... den we walked for very long... bout one hour... den e jie jie treat us... =)
den now i juz finished another BM lesson... quite tired coz i havn't slept enuf... den juz now me n minhui n ho pin, so got 3 gals, so i had 2 tow a brick!!! can sink one lorhz... den xiao ying and huabin were oso there... dunno y lehz... dey weren't taking e course... den when everyone swim le den me n minhui had 2 stay back 2 do plunging... coz sundae got competition... ya...
e camp was fun... =)

SLY IS MY IDOL

2004-12-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

SLY is MY idol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so touched when he sang e last song wif taufik i almost cried... ALMOST... i wanted sly 2 win.. n i voted a couple of times... sigh... nvm.. i wud support him all e way... i tink tt sly's i dream was so much beta den taufik's... so much more touching... SLY I LOVE U!!! well, anyway his band wud prob hav an album soon... jia you, sly!! jia you L.zefier!!! gambatte!!!

bm...

2004-11-30T23:04:00.000+08:00

heyys everyone... some "erruption" going on on e doodle-board... anyways, had my bm lesson on mondae... in case u peeps dunno wads bm.. bm = bronze medallion... it's a lifesaving course... so after i pass, i can save drownin ppl... ya... smt lyk tt... umm... well.. it was quite fun actually... coz it's not as tiring as training... i mean trainin makes me out of breathe... altho bm is exhaustin, it is not so... i dunno... umm.. strenuous... ya tt's e word.. umm.. my coach's wife's bro is oso takin e course.. surprise surprise.. he was tired after awhile when his sister's drills r lyk 100 times worse??!! nvm... tt's coz he dun swim much i guess... well.. wadeva.. n ya.. met some other new frenz... lyk ho pin... n umm yongcai??? 4got e name.. heex... sry.. i m v bad at rememberin chinese names... well, oso, my coach kept sabo-ing me... keep volunteerin 4 me.. make me swim first... dortz.. n he still ask hu wanna volunteer... lyk anyone wud... well.. anywaes, i got a new phone.. umm.. quite long ago... actually, e dae after e incident... =) ;) take care...

curses

2004-11-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

i juz lost my phone.......... my nokia 6610i phone... so dun bother calling me eva again coz i may no longer hav a phone in my entire pathetic life... someone stole my phone... i curse tt person.... if a woman, may she get HIV n all sex-transmitted diseases den slowly rot 2 death... if a man, get his thing cut off and get smashed in a car accident den slowly rot 2 death... tis is soooooooooooo sick... how can anyone b soooooooooooooooooooo evil? e phone is worth 350-400 dollars n i juz bot it... y... y my phone... now my parents r mad at me, i cant contact my frenz, my pics r lost, my msgs gone, i feel lyk a walking corpse, i've cried my eyes dry. n i wanna curse tt person... i tot singapore was a safe haven>? crime rate low... y must dey steal?????? wads soooooooooo gd bout it? i hate thieves!!! 2 all ppl hu hav stolen things b4: cant u consider e victim's feelings? do u noe how important tt item is 2 e victim? cant u juz save up 2 buy it urself? y must u resort 2 stealing? it is e dirtiest way of getting something and u will 4eva b looked down upon... n I HATE YOU!!!

yay! =)

2004-11-07T13:26:00.000+08:00

yay! i rebonded my hair again!!! =) on fridae i rebonded... 2dae jacqueline reli came 2 our open house... it was quite borin coz we had nth 2 do when no one came... ya... some ppl oso asked us alot of questions on our project... dey oso cudn't believe tt we were onli sec 1s... i tink dey were quite impressed... well at least i hope so... n we got loads of praises... =) ... haha... one can nv get 2 many praises... heex... oya... btw, 2ml at 9pm on channel got HUANG DING RONG!!! ah! must remember 2 watch!!! dunno wads it bout coz i dint c e commercial... but shud b nice... i mean... any show wif him is nice... haha... oh n he still hasn't logged in 2 frenster 2 add me!!! so angry... bleah... dingrong if u r readin dis pls add me!!! haha... but i doubt he is... shruggs... =)

bored

2004-11-06T07:18:00.001+08:00

bored.. bored.. bored.. bored.. bored.. been readin n watchin tv all day... ok.. mayb not all.. coz i've oso been snoozin... but... urgh... u get wad i mean... sigh... oya... 2ml is sng's open house... 2 all potential female leaders of 2ml hu wants 2 get in2 a world-class sch, 2ml's ur dae!!! oya, onli 4 p6s... haha... feelin so lame... ok.. so mayb i m... oya... finally been frensterin n findin my "lost frenz"... haha... finally tot tt my frenster acc looked 2 pathetic... but anyways... gettin bored wif it... cant some of u cum up wif several acc.s 2 make my acc look beta??? haha... jk... oya.. it's rainin nw... sigh... it shud keep till trainin tis evenin b4 actually lettin e water slip... heex... =) ... still very bored... 2 all those hu havn't sign up 4 a frenster acc... SIGN UP NOW!!! (so tt my acc wun look so pathetic) haha... i m such a lame-o 2dae... DYWE rox! haha... those hu dunno wad is it... 2 bad... oya... gd luck 2 sec4 seniors frm sng 4 their O's... especially LD seniors.. haha.. n most of all, e nice ones hu talk 2 us... =)

dort...

2004-11-04T14:46:00.000+08:00

2dae a teacher scolded me.. so sad.. n feelin v bothered by it... i mean... lyk... it is already e HOLIDAES... n e teacher had nth 2 do wif us but came... sigh... tt's not e point... e point is tt she scolded me coz my nails were long... helo.. e white area is not even HALF a cm long... wads her prob? but anyways, i tot e sch wanted us 2 hav short nails 4 hygiene purposes?????? n my nails were 'long', but at least they were WHITE... as in CLEAN... so it IS hygienic... n so it's not a prob rite?????? sigh.. dun get wad adults r tinkin these daes...n she threatened 2 tell my ft.. lyk so wad lorhz... teachers... sigh... feelin kinda bummed these daes... i m not tellin y, tho...some1 pls cheer me up again... ... ...

..dot...dot...dot

2004-11-03T11:15:00.000+08:00

sprained my ankle on fridae... totally painful... suffered so much... haha.. den watched a deb8 between HCJC n United World Colledge.. e finals 4 e charitas thing... abit borin but e reception was gd... =) heex... feelin abit bummed out n disappointed tt i dint get into SYF... but... my monologue wasn't exactly very outstandin.. n i dint reli express myself... ... ... hope tt i wud get in2 e perth grp now tt i ain't in e SYF group... oya.. congrats 2 all those ppl hu got in... u guys r talented... break a leg n keep ld spirit glowin... CCA fair is cumin up soon... gonna b nice 2 my juniors next yr... =)

rock arms

2004-10-18T05:01:00.000+08:00

my arms still very suan.. feeling lyk rocks... sigh.. had swimmin on fridae... after every 2 laps of 50m must do pumpin... if over timin, must do 20 pushups!!!my arms felt lyk rocks tt dae... sigh... den tt dae when i played pool, got sum idiot wanted a long-distant relationship wif me.. dortz.. anyways.. i m so yao suan bei teng.. e pumpin we do is comando style lorhz... stomach cannot touch ground... n my hands no strength 1.. how 2 do??? anyways.. i dint do it well... well.. 2 tired.. oh ya.. saturdae watched {crazy 1st love}... e korean movie... damn nice... n funny... n touchin... i cried all thru halfway of e 2nd part...so touchin... all of u out there shud go n watch it! ... so nice... lazy 2 type anymore... buaiz!

relax...

2004-10-12T16:01:00.000+08:00

yeah! exams r finally over!!! higher chinese, science, d&t, chinese lit all very diff... v scared wud do badly... anyways, it's over... so i m gonna relax!!! juz went 2 my fren's house juz now 2 rollerblade.. Shifu... thanx 4 teachin me... u r very patient n make a gd shifu.. heex! umm.. well... ya n her younger bro was there 2... i tink his name is alloyscius... dunno how 2 spell.. rollerblading was fun... i only fell once... quite scary at first... den instead of movin forwards, i move backwards... haha... den when i hav 2 turn, i was like a penguin... coz i can only walk e turn n cant turn swiftly.. ya.. anyway... add me on friendster k... those hu reli noe me.... WILBER RULEZ!

sigh...

2004-09-29T10:33:00.000+08:00

haiya... 2dae felt so sick... had fever in e morning... 38.2 degrees... den 2ml got japanese EOY exam... sianz... feeling giddy... still havn't chaged font colour... cant find e no. 4 pink colour font... i feel lyk a blog idiot... well... anyway... if u got friendster pls add me.. thnks... well... any kind soul out there, pray 4 me k... haha... hope tt 2ml's exam wud b a breeze 4 me n the following exams 2... oh yeah... 2dae's mooncake festival rite... oishii no moonkeeki... luv yolk 1s... haha... hapi lantern festival!

haiz...

2004-09-08T13:50:00.000+08:00

haiz... i m soooooo broke... juz went 2 watch 13 going on 30... v. heartfelt show... made me cry 3 times during e show... den went j8 to take neoprint... which turned out sucky... sigh... n still buy loads of useless things... haiz... luckily got project this thursdae... den cant go skatin wif my frenz or else i wud reli b broke as left wif not a single cent... lalala... i m soooooo bored...

hey...

2004-09-07T08:33:00.000+08:00

tt was lynette... she helped me change e template... altho iwas e 1 hu put it 2gether... so proud of it!!! my fave wilber... sigh... aw... so cute...

2004-09-06T13:51:00.000+08:00

boo! haha..help u finish liao..no la.. not yet but e pic damn ai yan ahaha

Coolplay concert...

2004-08-09T04:32:00.000+08:00

i was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo high last nite!!! i cant believe that i went 2 e concert... thanx 2 my fren hu gave me e tix... my fren is sooooooooooooooooo nice 2 giv me e tix 4 free... anyway... e atmosphere was v v. high.... it's my first concert and it is a wilber 1... i m sooooooooooooooooo happy... wilber was so cool n cute... n he cried when he saw his parents in e audience... a-wei called him an ai ku gui (cry baby)... n a pig.... den wilber called him a monkey... i tink that wilber was soooooooooo damn kawaii... watashi wa WILBER san ga suki desu!!! i luv wilber... btw, wilber held 1 of pan shuai bang's person's hand... so jealous... n seriously, i tink that their bright orange outfit sucks... so awful lookin... shud choose a nicer colour... i tink my class tee looks a million times beta... =) n... i still can't believe that my parents actually allowed me 2 go to e concert...

arrrggghhhhhhhhh

2004-08-01T14:40:00.000+08:00

i m so sianz now... in e middle of e nite... n i got a jap test on mondae!!! i havn't studied.... juz dun feel lyk... i wun b able 2 concentrate if i dun hav e mood... this sux... i h8 tests!!! hu was e inventer of tests n exams???!!! i wanna sue u!!! (look into my pocket--- got hole)... umm... juz kidding... (got no $$$) arrggghhh! but i h8 u!!! sigh... sigh... sigh...

hi!

2004-08-01T05:30:00.000+08:00

i hav finally created a blog!!! so exciting... umm... wad shud i say? well... umm... congrats 2 myself... =)

idolz...

2004-07-31T14:40:00.000+08:00

my fave idol is wilber pan wei bo... he rules!!! ya... u can go to my profile to find out more about me...